from The Garden of the Dead

Marie Lundquist

The dead are spilling out like rapids when I lift the stones up from the ground. I have a rather sizable collection now. I throw them at the page like little spears.



*

I sit with my gaze chained to the ditch and stare down into mundanity. The old passions shorn and rinsed in so many waters that all the fibers have floated up to the surface and flocked there. All that’s left is what is scraped clean, gnawed into the bone. With these salt remains I build a seawall against death swelling over me with its unending story.



*

I don’t know anything about turtles and their apathy. I lay my cheek against the shell and mull over the most difficult question of all, the one about restlessness. Now, everything is rusting, even the small and unremarkable padlocks that have slept in oil baths all winter. They say you can learn to talk about sexuality and I think about watermelons and our surprise over the black seeds in our mouths and all that red.



*

A beetle can, for example, be made of copper and sunk in vinegar so that it patinates to a beautiful scarab green. So too can a person become metallic through mistreatment and neglect and reshaped into a neck ring with a lock that can only be opened by someone else from behind, with a gesture similar to a caress over that which we, in everyday terms, refer to as the pillar of the body.



*

Besides the aspen, there is a certain kind of person who maintains the art of small talk. Like floatplanes, they make everyone into listeners with their faces turned up toward the sky. Their words spawn everywhere, in piles of sawdust, raised beds, and compost heaps. I walk around with my shovel, scraping them together to cover the most delicate seedling, silence, whose name is rosemary.



*

If god exists, he is shut in an atrium like the one inside us, developing a person in the glow of a little red lamp. With antennas sensitive to everything tender, he finds his way to the most blood-filled and tense part, wherever it is. Cuts a line from the base of the neck, down through the armpit and the surging coast of the ribs, files down a piece of bone-bar, and kneads the heart until it looks like a flat-headed pine borer, shimmering with metallic fervor.

translated from the Swedish by Miriam Åkervall